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可笑

2011-06-13T06:19:00.000-07:00

去年的我佷想放弃

今年的我却想拥有

真的是笨

痛

2011-06-09T06:12:00.000-07:00

原來是我一个人在痛..

最可怕是
愛需要及時
只差一秒
心聲都已變歷史

舍不棄可否給我再識你
喜歡你卻沒能放低你
還是你我也始終總不適合你
不可一起我與你已不在一起

天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

可是一切都是我自己拿來
算了吧

??

2011-06-06T08:55:00.000-07:00

are we both in pain?

but still.
i dare not think
cuz it was too painful.
heart stabbed right in front.

now i feel the pain.

moments..happy or sad?

2010-03-07T00:15:00.000-08:00

miss all those moments
had so much fun
but everything had changed
its not like last time anymore
laughter, jokes, gossips, cries, loves
they all disappear suddenly
what's the cause
we'll never know
it just happens
how great it was to never know some of you
life would not have sorrow
but i'm glad that i found it out early
i'll just pretend i never know some of u..
i can be as cruel as u

updates!!!

2010-03-06T23:36:00.000-08:00

hey so sorry ppl for keepin my blog so dead for months!!been veri busy with assignments, presentations, test and finally EXAM!!bt the thing is they're finally OVER..yippee!!can celebrate!!lookin forward for my cameron trip..so excited..

k lets see wat happened for the past few mths..hmm..yup..went shoppin for new years clothes wit my besties..den went to T-Bowl in sungei wang for lunch which eventually became my dinner..haha..

my crazy bestie..hui wen..famous for the word cb..

wei ting + wan chin

huey miin + hui wen

next..Chinese New Year celebrations..tis year quite special..hang out wit Carmen they all TWICE..haha..had lots of fun wit them..n i miss gambling ppl..i wanna gamble summore nxt year..carmen..nxt year come bak again arr..ji mui..nxt time yum cha again n talk sam si...haha..

carmen + kah yan + me
poh ying had disappeared....

group pics

us again wit my new friend chui yee..aka ah so

tats all for now...will update more..

Santa, please make me happy for the year 2010

2009-12-24T23:03:00.000-08:00

Santa, please make me happy for the year 2010.
help me forget 'Teddy'..in this way i'll be happy..
help me forget the past..i'm tryin veri hard dy..
help me to wake up..n realise tat the time cannot be bak..
help him to hav a good relationship wif her..
help him to not concentrate too much on studies.until neglect her..

Santa, please help me to be a sweet, loving, caring n loyal girlfriend..
i dun want to hurt him..i want him to be happy..
i dun wan my problems to giv him burden..
i want to love him wit all my heart..
n pls help us to hav more conversation..^^

Santa, please make my friends happy too..
i hope tat they wun quarrel over small issues..
i hope evrything will be bak to normal..
u noe who i'm sayin..
n i hope tat i wun lose contact wit anyone of them..

n finally Santa, please help me finish my assignment..^^V
its too much..n college gonna reopen..HELP ME!!!

Santa, please grant my wishes..
i neva ask anything frm u for Christmas..
these are the only wishes i want u to fulfil.

Santa, please make me happy for the year 2010.

five words explain evrything

2009-12-21T05:02:00.000-08:00

i have been silly for the past few days..
so silly and stupid..
dreamin n thinkin rubbish..
why am i so silly?
huey miin arr..dun so stupid can anot..smart abit can ar..
the past is the past..stop thinkin about it..

today i finally found the answer to evrything..
i noe y we stop contactin..
u change ur name cuz u dun even wanna remember the past..
ur name is sufferin..so do mine..
tis is the last time i'm goin to tell myself..forget the past ok!!

'god' helped me a lot these few days..
by guidin me to find these answers..
n by givin me 5 words..
these 5 words make me wake up frm my dreamland..n stupidity n lastly silliness..

sher lok n friends' blog name is veri good..
appreciatedmoments.
appreciate evry moment u have..
it doesn't matter who it is..
whether it is ur friends,family or ur loved ones..
appreciate evry moment u hav wit them..

i shall change my display song..
it annoys me..lol

i love u sweetie

nitez..muaxxx

expect too much..

2009-12-07T05:03:00.000-08:00

we listen.we do.we try to satisfy the needs.but we tend to complain.
we complain is bcuz the other party complain.
how?by expectin too much from us.we can do.but we have our own abilities to do it.
sincerity..does not count by money $$..but frm the heart..
since we have the sincerity.then the other party shud be satisfied and happy of it..we do not expect too much frm u.but a word "satisfied" is enough for us..or mayb a "thank u"..
it needs countless time and creativity to do something special..therefore..appreciate it..
if dissatisfied continues..anger would come..
appreciate things that ppl have done 4 u..cuz there's a limit in evryone's anger..

LESSON LEARNT : do not complain too much..shut the bloody mouth..
this post is not to offend anyone but juz to talk about human beings today..

Genting Trip 30/10-31/10

2009-10-31T21:00:00.000-07:00

yippee..sem break is here..after 3 months of busy assignments and presentation.finally we get a break..haha..

went to genting on friday wit my college friends..hui wen,wan chin,wei ting,rui,nicholas and fred...early in the mornin woke up and and went to wei ting's hse..den wei ting's bro fetch us to taman jaya to take lrt to kl sentral..the guys were waitin for us there..but we were not the late ones..wan chin was the latest..cuz she came to kl from pahang..

den we took a bus to genting..when we reached there we had our lunch 1st..kfc..check in the hotel..we stayed at First World..iris alwiz tells me tat First World's hotel are veri small..now i can see..it is veri veri small..1st time stay there bcuz i alwiz stay at Highland wit Carmen they all..nxt we went to the theme park..but unfortunately..it was rainin heavily so we played veri lil games..too little..walk bak to First World again..it was rainin so heavily until all our shoes got wet..our legs too..wei ting and my legs were cold and pain..while waitin for the rain to stop.. we went to hav a movie..we watch Poker King.. it was quite funny and if i know how to play poker..mayb i'll understand the movie better..POker..teach me play poker..haha..

after the movie..we went bak to the theme park..it stop rainin adi..你娃娃..oni play for one hour..theme park closed at 7..hui wen and all went to play the 跳楼机 except for me and wei ting..because we were too scared..we dun dare..haha..so we went to sit the ferris wheel..stupid wheel turn for 3 rounds..hui wen finish playin adi..i was still in the wheel..den they went to play pirate ship..i did not dare to play..but hui wen n rui force me to play..and push me there..again.wei ting did not play wit us cuz she dun dare..she sit down n wait for us..walao..the pirate ship damn scary lerr..but quite fun la..stupid fred and nic keep kacao me in the pirate ship..

den went bak to hotel and eat maggi mee...stupid fred suddenly get emo..he went to sleep suddenly..less him,less fun..haha..at nite..we went outside to hav a walk..walk damn far tim..walk until leg oso pain..den we went bak to the hotel to play cards..yeah..we woke up fred..haha..den we continue playin until i wanna go to sleep..me and hui wen got veri tired..but dai ka jie wei ting dun let us sleep..she keep on tickling us..make us scream like mad..and it was midnite adi..crazy gal..later ppl tot something scary happen in the room..finally i was able to sleep..at 3am..

zZzZzZzZz...就放肆爱放肆追放肆去闯放肆是我的信仰再不去闯梦想永远只会是一个梦...*wan chin's alarm*her alarm rang for 3 times..
Miin : wan chin..wat time is it now?
Chin : 6 something oni..
Miin : huh??so early oni arr..y u on alarm?
Chin : i duno..wei ting call me on it last nite..
Miin : nvm..continue sleepin..

zZzZzZzZz...Somebody call 911!Shawty fire burning on the dance floor Whoa! *wan chin's phone rang*
Chin : my friend call me..i nid to follow them bak to pahang dy..
Miin : rili ar??so fast..wat time is it now?
Chin: 9 something dy..i go pack..

bim baa bim boo..wan chin went bak jor..den i kacao evryone wake up..wake up wake up..dun sleep liao la..haha..all of them woke up..after bathin and packin it was still oni 10 something..hui wen scolded me for callin her to wake up so early..haha..we check out at 12 and went to take a bus bak to kl..reach titiwangsa at 1 something..

while taking lrt bak to kl sentral..
Ting : hmm..eat wat later..eh..chee chiong kai got a lot of food damn nice..the hokkien me is veri delicious.
Fred : ya..hmm..let's go eat now..now can go down..we take another lrt to pasar seni..come..let's go down now..
Miin and Wen : huh??rili arr...walao..
Wen : cb!!

i had forgotten where we got down..but i remember we walk veri far to another station to take lrt to pasar seni..well..actually it was not veri far la..but wit the luggage and the hot weather..the journey looks far..haha..went to petaling street..did not eat hokkien mee..cuz we cant find it..btu we ate pan mee and hakka mee..it was quite delicious la..

after eatin..we all went home..home sweet home..the trip was quite fun..memorable trip..thanks evrybody..^^

pictures??giv me some time..not wit me..wit rui..hehe..

20/9/2009

2009-09-21T04:24:00.000-07:00

went to mid valley yesterday..did some grocery shoppin wit aunty..lol..wanna buy bag but no time..and mid valley doesn't have the type of bag i want..one day have go times square find..anybody wanna go wif me?? ^^

when we're almost done shoppin..received a call from hon hoong..but it wasn't him who tok to me..it was shu ying..she call me to go out hav dinner..n celebrate hon hoong bday..at 1st..i thought i couldn't go..but suddenly aunt so good mood..haha..she allowed me to go..but juz make sure i dun come bak too late..so i call hon hoong n told him i can go..den after tat at 7 pm he came to my hse n fetch me n poh ying.stupid fella..poh ying's house still so far..u call me to call her come down..pity tat small gal wait so long downstairs..after tat we had dinner in cheras..i duno wat's the shop's name..we were chattin bout our college life and oso some of the rumours tat had beenn spreadin..i'm not gonna say what is it..shu ying was tokin to her frien Crystal..and i was tokin to poh ying..suddenly..hon hoong felt so lonely..cuz evrything was girl talk..he looked up the sky and stare at the stars..lol..mayb he was even counting the stars..so sorry birthday boy..after the dinner..he fetch all of us home..but b4 he fetch us home..he wanted to go bak sembahyang his kuan yin 1st and oso save his muffin..for those who may not noe..muffin is his maid's name..lol..u noe y he wanna save muffin??cuz his gardener wanna ham sap his maid..his maid felt uncomfortable stayin alone at home wit the gardener..so she called hon hoong to faster go bak home..but unfortunately..hon hoong still got 2nd round..he wanna go out wit kenneth they all..he couldn't find his maid at home..so he was veri worried..n called muffin..muffin said she is upstairs..n hon hoong told her..ok..u r safe..now i wanna go out..and his maid shout on the phone..wat??u wanna go out again..lol..damn funny..the whole car heard maid's voice..pity the maid..haha..

so tat was all about yesterday..went home and sleep..sweet sweet dreams..^^

no comment

2009-09-19T06:11:00.000-07:00

juz now had a chat wit carmen..haha..she called me frm NZ..hehe..so long neva chat wit her on the phone..the last time i chat wit her on phone was on my birthday..hehe..see!!i still remember..sweet lerr..sorry larr..chat wit u 4 a while oni..cuz nid to bath..zadou rite..hehe..we tok lots of craps and a lot more..and we realise tat many things had changed..and all these gave me a shock..haiz..why must evrything change..y cant it maintain..how i hope tat the happy moments tat we use to hav in our secondary life will remain..
TO MY JI MUI....i noe wat happen between u and him larrr...haiz..i dunno wat to comment bout u all..n i will not side on anyone..cuz i duno the real story..but i juz hope tat evrything will be bak normal..5 years of friendship..its not easy to find such a good frien u noe...i hope u understand..
and to somebody..hmm..veri long din see u liao larr..stupid la u..same college n i duno wat is goin on..i'm like katak di bawah tempurung lerr..hmm..one day come out hav lunch la..
and lastly..so long neva hear frm poh ying adi..she like disappear jor..find one day go yum cha wit her..ppl 4get u..but i will remember u..haha..ji mui..u go too k..i think u oso veri long din see her liao..duno whether she got grow tall onot..lol..

hmm..waitin for him to on9..but guess he eat dinner till 4get me liao..sob...xD...

gtg..nid to watch tv lerr..today hk drama last episode..^^

long time neva blog

2009-09-19T02:33:00.000-07:00

its been a long time i neva go blogging..cuz assignments are getting more n more..n exam is comin..so there is seldom any time i can blog..n sometimes i dun even noe what to blog..haha..but i neva blog for so long sure got lots of stuff to say..

its the month of September..walao!!so many people birthday..let me list them down..

2nd September --> Jia En and Danyal
13th September --> Yap Yeong
17th September--> Nicholas
18th September--> Wan Chin
21 September--> Hon Hoong

hehe..i think no more dy rite..hope i neva left out any of u..if got..so sorry..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ALL...MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!!!

nowadays keep thinkin bak bout my childhood memories..i realised that many things hav changed..the relationship, status, location..changed...i dun call them wat i used to call them..they dun stay where they use to stay..we are not as close as each other..and the whole situation look awkward...how i hope tat evrything did not change..

how i wish those childhood memories will come bak..
buyin snacks n drinks evry sat at the bak of the hse wit our pocket money..
eatin Kinder Bueno Chocolates in Singapore with the purpose juz to get the toy inside the choc..n makin it as our collections..
gettin new clothes frm u evry chinese new year..
playing masak masak like a girl tat will neva grow up..
playin monopoly and horse games when we're bored..
goin to Popular not to buy pencils and rubbers but Pokemon cards..
ridin lil ponies n u ride horses..
eatin Western and Japanese food as our dinner almost evry weekend..n its one of our fav food..
n more but last but not least..the feelin of love n belongin tat i use to hav..the so called 'complete' family tat i use to hav..but all of these is adi over..it will not happen anymore but stay in my memories 4eva..i noe it doesn't belong to me..n i shud giv it bak..
thank u so much for givin me tis family love.. i will not complain to God but thank God for He gave me a sweet childhood memory tat evry child would dream to hav..

tired..lost..bored..

2009-08-02T02:43:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling lost

left alone

forgotten

they juz do anything to hurt u

mayb for their own satisfaction

i duno

who am i today??
i rili duno

she juz dun believe u

n they juz forget u

each n evryone is disappearin in my life

my decisions to move away

my decisions to forget them

is it right or wrong??

if there is a wishing star..i would wish to have a happy life

happy evryday

tears will never roll down frm my eyes

纪佳松每天 nice song

2009-07-24T07:15:00.000-07:00

还以为是浪漫的雾景
hai yi wei, shi lang man de wu jing
我呼吸被任意的空气
wo hu xi, bei ren yi de kong qi
雪不再结成了冰我们将沉默
xue bu zai jie cheng le bing, wo men, jiang chen mo
阳光在遥远还剩下什么能留到最后
yang guang zai yao yuan, hai sheng xia shen me, neng liu dao zui hou

*一年了候鸟没有回来
yi nian le, hou niao mei you hui lai
飞不远变成谁的晚餐
fei bu yuan, bian cheng shei de wan can
站在摩天高楼顶瞬间变平定
zhan zai mo tian gao lou ding, shun jian, bian ping ding
永远是什么一转眼就崩落
yong yuan shi shen me, yi zhuan yang jiu beng luo

Chorus
You are my everyday
Oh, 每一天就像在预告
Oh mei yi tian, jiu xiang zai yu gao
关于明天是个问号
guan yu ming tian shi ge wen hao
却任谁也无处可逃
que ren shei ye wu chu ke tao

You are my everyday
Oh 想你最初的容貌
Oh, xiang ni zui chu de rong mao
回不去了而我的爱
hui bu qu le er wo de ai
你是否还愿意感觉得到
ni shi fou hai yuan yi gan jue de dao

Repeat from *

后悔吗 Tell me why
hou hui ma
在亲手毁灭之后挽救
zai qin shou hui mie zhi hou wan jiu
像伤害我最爱的人
xiang shang hai wo zui ai de ren
听地球正在哭泣
ting di qiu zheng zai ku qi

Repeat Chorus

love is always patient and kind

2009-07-24T06:25:00.000-07:00

if my com has chinese it'll be easier to express my feelings..
anyway..straight to the point..

today poker told me tat a blogger is emo and sad..is it true??hmm..mayb..i rmb last time i started bloggin bcuz i was sad too..i wrote bout my ex and friends..it was easier to express my feelings in the blog den tellin it to others..

wat happens when a girl and guy are interested in each other but they dun hav the courage to be together??wat happens when the guy dun hav the courage to chase her when he noes tat the girl oso likes him??wat happens when there is alwiz something tat is blockin them frm tokin to each other??there is a small chance tat they almost be in the same class today..but teacher did not allow..cuz timetable is adi set..the students are not allowed to change it..they oni hav the chance to see each other once a week for 2 hours..where there is 100 over ppl in a class..n they sat at a very long distance..hardly able to have a conversation..their oni conversation is oni hi and bye..but to the girl..a hi and bye frm him is adi enough..she is adi happy and satisfied wit it..lookin at him at a far distance is oso sufficient for her..

i noe ur sad today bcuz of the timetable today..
i oso noe u dun hav the courage to do wat ur suppose to do
but no matter wat.
there is alwiz time..
i'll wait till the time comes..
i will wait till u find ur courage..
n u must be strong n neva giv up..
i'll be there to support u..

a smile frm u is enough to lighten up my day..
a hi and bye frm u is enough to satisfy myself..
love is always patient and kind..

B I R T H D A Y

2009-06-20T06:27:00.000-07:00

sorry for the super duper late post..suppose to upload tis but dun have time..cuz got too much assignments and exam comin..finally the 1st semester finish..now i am havin my study break..june 30 will be my exam..so scary..so nervous..hope i'll pass!!~~

ok..1st..tok about my secondary friens..i sms jia en n told her tat i can go out on sat which was 30 May..so i called her to plan the outing..den on tat day..hon hoong fetched me to klcc with jia en n lie chin..we reached there veri early..so we walk around until the guys come..den around 5 something..yap yeong, xheng fei and kah wai came..we have our dinner at chilis..the food were in big big dishes..so lie chin,jia en and me shared a plate..after we finished the food..we keep chattin den suddenly the chilis worker came wit a bday cake..which was veri surprising..lie chin and i were shocked..cuz we did not think tat they'll celebrate our bday..haha..veri surprisin..no wander hon hoong and kah wai went out so long..haha..they went out to buy a cake..lol..but the cake was too huge..nobody managed to finish it..lol..and hon hoong brought the cake bak cuz me and lie chin dun wanna bring it bak..unfortunately..hon hoong told me tat the cake melted..ouch!!wat a waste!!!!so sorry!!!

the next day..31 May..outing wit my college friens..poker fetched me to sunway cuz i dun wanna drive there..dun wan my aunt n mum to worry..n tat stupid poker so SMART!!!!use long way to come to my hse n drove almost all the way to nilai..i think..4get adi..but i can confirmed he was lost when he came to my hse...i told u to listen to my advice..listen to my direction..but u dun wan..haha..ur fault..den when we reached there..we had our lunch at gasoline wit hui wen,sher min,shi ming,xin chieh,wey shern and poker...den we went to sing k..sing until we were almost late for dinner...we had lots of fun in red box..after tat we met wei ting,wei wei,ee jin,shu li,clarissa,lisa,rachel,n julian at a steamboat buffet place..lol..the cheese was so disgustin...n xin chieh and wey shern made me eat it..sayin tat they purposely cook for me..so i hav to eat..n guess wat..i rili eat it..lol..haha...den wei wei trick me to go get some food cuz they wanna get the cake ready..but too bad..i came bak too fast..i found out..lol..they sang the song so loud till evrybody look at our table..lol..abit malu..

now...the real day..3 June..my bday..lol...so in college..many ppl wish me..on tat day..12 am...hui wen and poker tried to call me to wake me up and wish me happy bday..but unfortuanely..i sleep until like a pig..i rili duno my phone rang..lol..so sorry..den after tat..my aunt said wanna go outside n eat..cuz its my bday..must make it a special day..so we went out to eat at kfc kuchai lama..when i was almost done wit my food..i saw shi lin walk pass outside..i tot it was an illusion..so i did not bother..i asked iris whether did she saw shi lin onot..but she said no..so i did not bother..den suddenly..jia en they all appear wit a bday cake in front of me..i was so surprised and i almost cried..lol..tat was so sweet frm u guys...thank u so much...jia en actually pakat wit iris and my aunt to make tis surprise..thank u so much for the surprise..tat was so sweet..thanks to jia en,su yin,kah wai,hon hoong.shi lin,marcus and nicholas...and also my aunt n iris..love u guys...

presents...my aunt gave me angpow..lol..
iris gave a handbag..
jia en gave me sunglasses..and she told me she had one the same too..juz tat hers is brown n mine black..hehe..
poker gave MASK..my face tat teruk meh...giv me mask..lol..anyway thanks..
nicholas gave a handphone bag..
my 5 noisy ji mui--hui wen,wei ting,wan chin,wei wei and ee jin..gave me a necklace wit a music box..and also clothes wit skirt..the guys also paid for the clothes and skirt..
bryan n sher min gave me a hand bangle..
n carmen sent me a bday card all the way frm NZ..thank u so much..tat was so sweet frm u dear..
thank u so much for all the gifts..tat was so sweet of all of u..thanks for the surprise..although the surprise tat wei ting organised did not work out..but anyway..thanks for all the hard work..love all of u..

happy mother's day

2009-05-10T01:58:00.000-07:00

today is mother's day..wish my mum and my aunt HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!may u all stay healthy and be happy evryday k..hehe..love u all so much..

so today is mother's day..so my aunt n i went to bought a cake and some food for her to eat to celebrate wit her..i think tis is my 2nd time i celebrate mother's day wit her..she was surprised to see us..and she wuz veri happy..i woke up early in the mornin and bathe..den went to oug to buy some clothes for my english presentation which is on tuesday..cuz hav to wear formal attire ma..den went to king's to buy a coffee cake for her...and bought some kfc for her too..she wuz happy to see us..and my aunt start to realise tat she is gettin old adi..she is 89 years old liao..hope she'll stay healthy and may she live longer..love of all u so much!!HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

love ur mothers cuz they rili did a lot for us..

they neva giv up on us no matter wat wrong we did..

instead they teach us nicely..

hopin tat we'll be someone good in future..

wish all mothers happy mother's day..

i love u mum and aunt!!

T-shirt day

2009-05-10T01:23:00.000-07:00

nowadays college assignment is gettin harder and harder..so hard until i dun feel like duin it..n i rili din do..can somebody help me wit my critical thinkin work..so difficult!!!i duno how to do..nid to wait for some smart ppl to do..haha..den i can copy..haha..so students out there who are still studyin in school..better not say ur pmr and spm is hard..our college life is way more harder den all tis..hehe

on wednesday was our FIA t-shirt day..evryone hav to wear the red t-shirt..which design n colour is veri disgustin..and sucks..kah wai and xian hor cant stop commentin about my t-shirt..kah wai told me tat the actual design was nicer..anyway..wat to do..still hav to wear it evry wednesday larr..den we also miss one hour class for business class..wat a crap!!!teacher din tell us tat the timetable change liao..she din say the class change to two hours liao..by the time we went in the class..teacher adi finish teachin...haiz..wasted tat one hour..guess wat we did in tat one hour..lol..we went to surf the net..talk about our past..and oso took photos..lol..and oso tok about hon hoong's hse..cuz they were lookin at my facebook photo..and they asked me which rich kid's hse is tis..and i say hon hoong..and they say..walao..he dun look like rich guy oso..they say his hse look like mansion..so damn big!!!lol..i am proud to have tis frien..cuz he so rich but he is still friendly and nice..not lan si at all..omg!!i am praisin him..he better not see tis..lol.

me and ee jin

wan chin and me

hui hui and me

me and wei ting

hui wen and me

baby born!!!

2009-05-10T00:22:00.000-07:00

on wednesday, 6 of May 2009..a cute lil baby was born..

the baby's name is Julian Tan..he's my cousin's son..he's juz so cute..

so after my college..i straight away went to the hospital wit my aunt to visit the baby and my cousin..my cousin had to do operation to get the baby out..she say durin the operation not pain..but after tis pain..omg!!i cant imagine tis man..anyway the baby is juz so cute..my aunt is gonna take care of tis baby on june..hope to see him soon..n may he grow healthy and be a good boi..hehe

bored

2009-04-26T19:23:00.000-07:00

feel so bored bout my life..there's nothin to blog about..bored bored bored

nowadays quite broke..spent all of my pocket money adi..why??car service, parkin tickets, lent to aunt, petrol..haiz..din even went shoppin n and hang out wit friens adi so broke..

okay..let's tok about college life..i start to realise tat sunway is so much more better den stamford..the ppl there more funny n friendly..unlike stamford..i oni mix wit tat few ppl 4eva..met many types of ppl..ppl who are selfish, flirty, funny, crap a lot..bla bla bla..u name it..although there are many types of ppl..but its still ok..luckily i still can communicate wit them..some of them can even tok more crap den xheng fei they all..haha..sometimes i rili miss my secondary life..so happy..so fun..nowadays..i seldom get to see them..i wonder how are they now..

a few days ago..my aunt was cleanin the bedroom..den found some of me, iris and some of my cousin's baby photos..they're so cute..when we look thru it..we keep laughin seein our silly acts..iris was so so so CUTE when she was a baby..haha..den my aunt told us about our childhood stories..how she took care of us..how we cry..and of cuz how we bully each other..haha..my aunt said tat there was once me n iris both ate apple..i finished mine adi..but iris was takin her own sweet time eatin it..den i snatch her apple n eat it..wahahaha..i'm a big bully..and my aunt oso said tat i got pull her hair b4..walao..cant believe tat i'm so noti when i was a kid..den iris said last time i alwiz bully her..but when we grow big now its her time to bully me..haha..it is veri nice to think bak our baby times..rili cute and funny..den iris told me tat she wished tat she'll neva grow big..as we grow big..we will face more problems..many kinds of problems..a baby will oni juz wait for food bath and sleep..no problems..haiz..i oso wish to neva grow big..but wat to do..tis is life..we hav to face many kinds of problems..and we must face it strongly..

13/4 to 19/4

2009-04-19T17:41:00.000-07:00

13/4
woke up early in the mornin to do the stupid english task..about natural disaster..came to the library at 8.30 to do it wit my group members..unfortunately there wuz not much group work...cuz the group leader is quite anti-social and selfish and lansi!!!!!after 1 or 2 hour sittin in front of the com stunnin..den oni the leader told us wat to do..well tat was after i asked him wat are we suppose to do..i was quite mad at him..no teamwork at all..how am i gonna survive wit this stupid group leader!!!argh!!!!

15/4
on tuesday nite..sze hui sms me to meet up at klcc..i slept adi so i did not reply her..the nxt mornin i replied her n told her tat i cant go out cuz as usual the same reason..aunt dun let..den oni sze hui told me tat she will be leavin to singapore the next day..so sad..another frien went outstation to study again..hope she'll be be fine there and may she be successful..
in the morning..i had culture and idea class..the lecturer was absent but she called someone to show us a documentary..tat was veri borin..about churches and bla bla bla..not interesting at all..evrybody was tokin durin the show..den went for our lunch..after tat..acc class..evrybody complains tat the lecturer is veri borin and cheong hei..haha..she will repeat the same info again and again and again..tat was so borin..den after business class..went home..tot can go home and sleep..cuz the whole day was too borin and start to feel tired..but my plan FAILED!!!bcuz of the stupid traffic..aargh!!!i was stuck in the jam for one hour near pj hilton..duno y tat day so jam..my leg and my back was achin cuz hav to keep pressin the brake..

18/4
study study study and watch tv the whole day..den durin the evenin..chat wit carmen awhile..so long neva msn wit her..den told her about my feelins and y nowadays i'm so emo..i start to realise tat many ppl is fake..i dun understand y they must be fake..for popularity??for guys gals??i dun get it..there is juz too many ppl tat i cant trust..tis is not the 1st time i had tis feelin..i hav been cursin tat person many times..i hate tat person..i dun wanna hate tat person..but i juz cant help it..the way tat person do things is juz not rite..tat person used to be my true frien..but now its like tat person doesnt treat me as one..tat person start to treat another person as true frien and forgotten me..do u noe how much it hurts to be forgotten?? i dun care whether when u see tis u'll cry onot..cuz u urself never cared about my feelings b4..i juz wanna express my hatred here..i dun wanna keep tis feelin in my heart cuz it's veri pain..y u hav to see a person's quality and popularity to make friens??does it even make u more popular..NO!!!it doesn't..it'll juz create hatred between ur other friends and start to say ur fake...carmen is rite..i shudnt tink so much..let tat person be..dun care about them anymore..i hav my own happy life..i have to live my life happily..i shud not be sad bcuz of this stupid selfish ppl..i hope my anger will be lower and i'll calm down after writin tis down..haiz...

interesting questions!!!

2009-04-12T04:38:00.001-07:00

too bored adi..so found a survey..i think u guys can try to answer it and post it in ur blog..

What is your favorite memory from your past?: when me and him were veri veri sweet and evrybody envy tis relationship..

What event do you think made the biggest difference in your life?: hmm..quite a secret..it wuz a childhood thingy..

What are you most proud of in your life?: getting straight As for PMR and SPM..^^

Has anything tradgic happened to you lately?: erm..maybe yes..

If yes, how are you coping?: i'm still thinkin about it..

Who was your role model growing up?: hmm..my aunt?!!

What is your least fav. food?: i start to hate rice now..bored of it adi..

Are you happy with your career status?: yup..

Do you believe you have accomplished all that you want to in life?: erm..not all yet..there's still some to be accomplished..

Who are you most proud of at this moment?: lol..my aunt again i guess..she's veri strong when she faces problems..

Has anyone ever said something that truly saved your life?: hmm..let me think about it..not sure..

Is there one thing you regret most in your past? If yes, what?: i regret quarrelin wit my best frien,denise..now we're not as close like last time..and i duno how is she now..miss her..sorry denise..

What one thing would you want your kids to know about your life?: lol..mayb my love life..haha

If you were to die tomorrow would you want to be buried or cremated?: of cuz buried!!

If you could say sorry to anyone in your life who would it be and what would you say sorry for?: hmm..it's a secret..hehe

Are you addicted to anything that is not a recreational drug?: addicted to the TV!!!haha

What is your favorite TYPE of show?: LOVE STORY!!!!

Where in the world would you love to retire?: a place where it is quiet wit nice environment..i hope to go there wit my future husband..haha

How many children do you plan to have?: er..two..a daughter and a son..

Do you agree with the war strategy?: wat is tat??i think no..

Who is your fav. politician?: no idea..i hate politics..dun ask me anything about politics...they are not interesting..

What religion are you?: buddhist

What was your fav. cartoon when you were young?: a lot..haha...mayb Tom and Jerry..

Are you a slob, clean freak, or in between?: in between

If you could afford a maid, would you have one?: ermm..mayb yes...but havin a maid sometimes is oso not a good thing..especially when they dun understand wat u say or when they start puttin things in ur drink..

What was your first pet? What was its name?: so sad..i dun hav any pet..if yes..it would be the lizard in my hse..haha

Are you in love? If not, do you want to find someone perfect?: yes..i'm in love wit someone..haha..

How old were you when you had your first "crush"?: lol..tis is gonna be funny..9 or 10 years old i think..

What grade was your fav. when you were in school?: form 5..cuz we start to appreciate our friendship more..

What one life lesson have you learned so far, and what does it mean to you?: choose ur bf properly and dun regret..make sure his attitude is good..get to noe him more b4 u plan to be wit him...

tired of my life

2009-04-12T03:51:00.000-07:00

duno why suddenly feel veri emo..i feel i cannot communicate with anyone..i feel like as if i'm alone..i feel like as if i've lost something veri valuable to me..i duno wat is tat n i duno how to describe it..things seem to have change as the time pass..evrybody is busy with their own life..i duno who am i now..i dun even noe who is the closest person to me now..why is my life so different from other ppl?!i hate tis feeling...

college life

2009-04-11T03:27:00.000-07:00

nowadays veri busy wit assignments and projects..a lot of group work projects and presentation to do..on tuesday was suppose to do a presentation on a contemporary hero whom u respect n desire..but at last it did not come to my turn..cuz too many ppl in the class..but also quite scary..hav to present to 60+ ppl..oh no!!!so scary....

and now i start to hate the maths teacher..he is such a lazy fellow who doesn't even noe how to teach..hate him hate him hate him!!!he oni noe how to pass the papers to us and sit down there wait till the time finish..haiz..what a useless teacher..and yesterday he say wanna hav to leave the class early because of good friday church service..what a GOOD reason..he alwiz makes excuses to leave the class..stupid teacher!!!

CARMEN's birthday

2009-03-29T03:44:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING CARMEN!!
on the 6th of april was one of my best friend birthday..but unfortunately we couldn't celebrate wit her because she is now in NZ!!!carmen men..when u come bak we celebrate ur bday again la k..hehe..wish ya happy and healthy forever k..i noe nowadays u in NZ alwiz get sick..drink more water and take good care of urself k..and oso dun care so much about the things happenin in Malaysia la k..sometimes things will seem to be out of ur control..so stay happy k!!!!

new environment..new life..

2009-03-24T04:08:00.000-07:00

23/3
today is the first class at college...the first day wuz ok ok oni..my class started veri late..12.30 to 2.30 oni..go there juz for 2 hours class oni..sienzz..today's class wuz accounts..as usual..the accounts wuz super duper easy..oni study wat is asset,liability,equity,expenses n income oni..since i hav some accounting knowledge in english b4 tat in stamford..so it wuz not too difficult for me..my classmates who had learnt account b4 found the class so super duper borin..all oso feel like sleepin..

24/3
today got 6 hours class non stop..8.30 to 2.30..so super duper long..early in the mornin woke up at 6.30 to bath n eat breakfast..den went out of the hse at 7.30..and guess wat..traffic jam n heavy rain..oh no!!!i wuz stuck in the jam for 1 hour..den i came late for class..the 1st lesson wuz english..they did some icebreakin session..it wuz juz to noe each other better oni..when i came..tat session wuz almost over..den the english teacher call us to play a game called Guess the Movie..we were divided into 2 groups..and each group hav to send their volunteer up there to guess the name of the movie..the game wuz quite fun..n some of my classmates oso did some funny actions bcuz they wanna imitate the movie character..so funny..den after english lesson..it wuz the critical thinkin lesson..this lesson is to train how to think properly..it wuz veri fun and interesting..we discover many many new things..den after tat it wuz maths class..b4 tat kah wai told me tat the maths 1st topic is extremely easy..the 1st topic wuz about addition,subtraction,multiplication and division..imagine how easy wuz it..i showed iris the paper..n she said how come so easy wan..is this college maths??..haha..the whole class laugh when we open the paper oso..cuz nobody expected it to be like tat for college maths..even ausmat 1st topic wuz not like tat..

NS 1st batch is bak..2nd batch went jor...

2009-03-20T04:06:00.000-07:00

NS 1st batch came bak on 11th march 2009..hehe..finally shu ying n meng hu is bak..wonder how they look like now..haha..wonder how meng hu look like wit no hair..haha..n oso lian yang oso came bak frm ns 1st batch..kah wai said he is botak n oso grown thinner..haha..our smilin buddha is bak..haha..but a few days ago the 2nd batch went jor...my good cute fat lil didi,yiau wei n my sei dong ji mui,sher lok went to ns jor..haiz..gonna miss them..cannot see the fat pig for 3 mths..haha..tat day yiau wei call me come out makan wit him cuz he gonna go for ns..but den i cannot go out..so i juz told him i cant go..n i oso tell him not to be sad..cuz ns is a good place for him to KEEP FIT..haha..free of charge slimmin centre..haha..if he see tis he sure come n chase me wit a knife..haha..sorry la didi..i too miss u liao..must zat u oni song lerr..haha..n for sher lok..kah wai tat day told me tat he could not imagine how will sher lok look like wit his head bald..haha..i oso cant imagine lerr..haha...miss them so much..n jian yik oso went for ns..hmm..some more who else..i think i oni tis three ppl went for ns..hehe

y i open a blog...??...

2009-03-20T03:48:00.000-07:00

tis topic i suppose to write long long ago de..but the com spoil liao..so dun get to write about tis topic..haha..n tis topic oso suggested by carmen..haha..so i owe her tis post...well..1st 1st i open tis blog..it wuz for myself to see oni..nobody noes about tis blog..tat time i wuz single..so quite got a lot of friends,love n family problem...so i decided to open up a blog n write down all my sam si...den after tat carmen decided to go new zealand..and den secondary life is over..so i decided to tell evryone my blog..so tat i can keep in touch wit them..n oso let them noe about my life..and well it rili works..now carmen will oso shout on my chat box call me to upload my blog..haha..n recently jia en oso opened up a blog..haha..i see her blog liao den oni i noe tat she recently go for catwalk show..wow..so yeng lerr..haha...

too long never blog..

2009-03-20T01:41:00.000-07:00

hey friends..sorry for not bloggin for so long..cuz 1st reason veri veri busy..exam comin..n den my aunt alwiz call me fetch her here n there..den i tot i can blog de..how i noe..the stupid computer spoil jor..so nid to send to repair..2day i get bak the com i 55 upload my blog liao la..sorry k..especially carmen..i noe u wait for me to update my blog until neck oso long liao..haha..sorry sorry..i neva blog for tis few weeks..rili lots of things happen..but i will talk about it one by one k..hehe..

1st of all..i will say about the SPM results..the SPM results came out on 12th March 2009.. evrybody went bak to skul to collect their results..except for me..haha..i oni took it on the next day..cuz tat day got class n exam comin..so i tot wanna concentrate on my comin exam more..on tat day..some ppl took their result happily while some were feelin sad for it..but anyway friens..itz adi over..now we hav to step to our future..and work hard for it..so all the sadness is over..we should work even harder for our future...and as usual iris will tell me wat happenned in skul..haha..she told me on tat day a lot of P license car came..a bunch of P license car..haha..the way she say so funny..when my friends were takin their results..i wuz havin my class..but at the same time i wuz veri nervous about it too..cuz veri anxious n wanna noe about my result..the feelin is like straight away wanna fly to stella maris n see the results..but i cant..even my college friens oso veri nervous about it..den my good frien hon hoong called me n tell me to belanja him makan..i say why..he say cuz i got straight As..so i shud belanja him makan..haha..i will belanja all of u makan when the time comes k..i tot he lie to me..cuz the sejarah paper wuz veri veri hard..i din expect to get an A..den the next day..i went to skul..n took my results..i wuz veri veri happy wit it..n oso din expect to hav tat result..but i'll curse PHYSICS 4EVA cuz tat subject made me cant get more money for my scholarship..haha..but anyway its adi over..so nvm la..i adi try my best..i fail my physics b4..can get A2 oso can liao la...dun expect too much..hehe..den i went n hav some chat wit some teachers..n oso chat wit mr.liew..he told me tat i shud not waste my time in stamford..i shud go to other colleges..he told me to use my results n apply for scholarship..den tat will be no problem..he suggested help,taylors,sunway n monash..so i told my mum n aunt about it..n they say "u like la"..and my aunt oso quite support me to change...cuz we start to hear frm other ppl tat stamford account not good..and so ngam on the 13th n 14th got education fair at mid valley..so i went wit my aunt to check out the colleges..

drive to mid valley at 10am..went to highest floor..n get information..unfortunately the colleges there are more for design n games multimedia etc..n by the way..poh ying i noe wat is PJCAD liao..its in jalan barat..near stamford n olympia college..its a design college..hehe..den i went n search for help,taylors, n sunway..but sunway wuz not there..so i went and ask for information at help n taylors..den i suddenly realise tat i shud not take CAT den ACCA..bcuz quite risky..if i cannot pass all the papers (which is super duper hard...even my friend who got 12As for SPM oso cannot pass the last level..imagine how hard it is...) den i may not get a good job in future..so i decided to take degree instead..den can take ACCA sit 5 papers oni..den i almost decided to go help cuz tat college offer more scholarships n oso the price there cheaper..luckily i din go there..or else i may switch college again..cuz my cousin sis said tat the accounts there not rili good..she suggested me to Sunway..den i called my another cousin sis who is an accountant now..she suggested me to take MUFY in sunway den enrol in Monash University which is a veri good university..ya good..but the fees so expensive..and the scholarship so little oni..even help offer more..but den my aunt say since my mum can afford it..den i shud not think so much about the fees..so i called su yin n asked her about sunway..den we decided to go sunway the nxt day..i got counselled by the ppl there..den i made the decision..now i'm takin Foundation In Arts bcuz the price is quite ok compare to other pre-u..n oso i can invest more money in my degree..n oso since i dun plan to further my studies oversea..den went to stamford n told the head of accounting i'll quit tis place n go to sunway..of cuz i said in a polite way la..i can see his face veri disappointed cuz his college adi gettin veri lil malaysian students..who call u invite so many foreign students wor..until the whole college look like in china..not malaysia..haha..so it wuz bye bye to Stamford n hello to Sunway..xian hor,su yin n kah wai wuz veri happy tat i'm joinin them in sunway...n oso i dun nid to sit for the exam liao..haha..cuz i no more in the college..luckily i havent pay the fees there..but anyway..i'll miss the times n funs tat i had in stamford..i'll miss the lecturer(ms ying n ms ong)..i will oso miss the way miss ong dress evryday..haha..n oso miss the way i guess wat shoes she gonna wear evryday..n oso will miss my close friends dalila n lu wei..n oso xin yi..hope to see u gals one day..dun hate me for leavin stamford suddenly k..hehe..i noe u all will oso leave one day oso..especially dalila n xin yi..haha..

19th of march---ORIENTATION for FIA...had to wake up early in the mornin cuz the orientation start at 9 and had to leave the hse at 7.45 cuz scared traffic jam..reach sunway college at 8 something..quite lost..cuz duno where to go...luckily kah wai called me n told me where to go..went to take the schedule for the orientation..n oso knew a friend called hui wen..she wuz frm negeri sembilan..n stays in the hostel..haha..by the way..her attitude n the way she tok veri similar to shu ying...its like i'm tokin to shu ying..veri cute la she..den went n find the hall..the place so big..walk walk walk den at last found the hall.den enter the place..as usual all the heads of department will come out tok tok tok..so sienzz...den after tat went to find kah wai..n had lunch..n oso go find xian hor n said hi..den later the lecturer discuss about the subjects..n recommend us which subject to choose..evrybody wuz veri blur..cuz the lecturer keep confusin us..n the subject choosin form oso fill in 2 times..bcuz of confusion..den oso met some new friens..they were hui hui (or wei wei oso can..when i see her name..i immediately think of hon hoong..shu wei wei ma..haha),wan chin,wei ting, n ee jin..all oso not frm kl except for wei ting..they all look so guai lui..haha..but wei ting rili looked like sze theng lerr..the more i see her face the more she looked like sze theng lerr..i oso saw a guy tat rili looked like lip harn..juz tat tat guy is shorter n less muscular..quite small size..haha..den went bak home..n my aunty dunno y veri bad mood..n oso tok to me in a veri cool way..i din do anything wrong oso..treat me so cool for wat wor..mayb she dulan me cuz go sunway study..haiz..n oso wanna noe my timetable time..like no freedom like tat..cham..

20th of march---the lecturer told us more about the subjects n and then it wuz time to arrange the time tables..i tot the timetable is given liao de..den the lecturer said we hav to arrange ourselves..the whole FIA group got 100-200+ students..so they got about 5 classes to open..we had to squeeze ourselves like sardin in to the line to register the subject in a hall which is veri small..snatch the paper n write our names..like go market snatch fresh fish n vegetables oni..haha..we did tis frm 10 to 12 something..so long..juz to register for 6 subjects oni..n 1 class oni limited to 30 students oni..den after the subject registration..the lecturer told us tat there will be lots of group work assignments..we must help each other..n sometimes may nid to stay bak to do the assignments together..haiz..my aunt so strict how to stay bak in future to do assignments wor..later she'll sure say i lie to her n go hang out wit friens..sure will say tat wan..confirm!!!den after tat i had lunch wit them den went bak..again my aunt treat me veri cool..veri dulan me..haiz..i see my friens all stay in the hostel like so free like tat..made me feel like movin there oso..at least if i stay bak late for assignments oso no wan will show face to me..she will neva understand how important is group work assignments to our examination marks..haiz..sien ar..i juz hope to hav a happy family oni ma..why must like tat..i juz wanna hav a better college environment n friends oni ma..why i cant do tat..i'm not even mixin wit rich kids who hate to study..i'm mixin wit gals who all wan to do well in our foundation n get scholarships for our degree..how come she'll neva understand..how come she must be affected by wat other ppl say..ppl say sunway ppl veri lan si,veri rich,veri spoilt..bla bla bla..ya it may be true..but i noe how to mix wit ppl k..how come u'll alwiz treat me like a small kid..when i decided to study in sunway..i neva even think of the hot guys there..i oni think tat i must work hard for my foundation to get another scholarship for my degree to lighten my mum's burden..how come she'll neva understand..haiz..ever since i study in sunway..she treat me like tis liao..2 days oni i've been there..2 days oso like tat liao..how bout the rest of the days..years..i will be there for 4 years..haiz...can anybody tell me wat to do...haiz...juz now hon hoong ajak me come out yum cha i oso dun dare go out..hon hoong straight away say how come evrytime i call u u sure say ur at home..u got no other place to go or to do...haiz..even ytd shi lin call me to chat i oso dun dare to chat wit him..scared later she say i go sunway know guys..haiz..tat is the reason y i did not want to enrol in sunway at 1st..2 days oni i've been there..y must like tat??how come she dun trust me..i adi behave myself properly adi..i adi neva think of guys..i adi neva spend so much money on shoppin..how come she still dun believe me n treat me like a kid...i adi been more mature den b4..i noe how to think adi la..haiz...

27/2-gatherin at times square

2009-03-01T03:05:00.000-08:00

carmen men..sorry so long neva upload my blog k..cuz quite busy wit my studies..cant catch up n iris alwiz use the com..i'll try to upload my blog frequently k..

on thursday mornin my mum sms me n said tat she's comin bak..she told me to ajak my friens out..so i ask jia en n poh chin where to meet n who to call..so we call those who dun hav class on tat day..n meet at times square..we actually plan to hav gal chat in the afternoon wit poh chin,jia en n poh ying..n hav dinner wit the guys at nite..but then the guys said tat they hav match at nite..so we change it to lunch..unfortunately..not evryone turned up n oso some ppl oso din noe about the changes..and i juz kena scold my wai loon for not tellin him the time change..sori wai loon..learn frm ur lesson k..nxt time better reply me..haha..n oso poh ying..i veri veri veri long din see u liao la..nxt gatherin u dun come again i come to ur hse n fetch or u can even call jia en..hehe..

on friday mornin my mum come bak..i tot she'll fetch me to times square..but den she tricked me n at the end i hav to drive to times square..lucky got her bside me..haha..so scary..1st time drive to kl..den after tat i went at met poh chin n chat wit her awhile..den later kah yan n yap yeong came..we go sony centre find wai yuan..he wuz workin there..as usual..he'll alwiz smile smile n smile..he neva fails to put a smile..haha..den there comes jia en n kelvin..n den when kah wai and yee cher came..we went to the a restaurant call Bar-b-que something something..4get the name liao..hehe..i oni noe outside got one big green dragon oni..and accordin to kah yan..it is veri veri cute..haha..den we eat eat eat..when the food is almost finish..there come xheng fei..tat guy got his drivin test on tat day...n guess wat..he did not pass..he paid the 200 extra for on the road n FAIL on the road..u noe wat is the reason..because he "cong hong dang"..how smart he is rite..n yap yeong say exam adi "cong hong dang" nxt time got license liao lagi teruk..haha..anyway..hope xheng fei will pass his drivin test nxt week n dun break the rules again ok..hehe..den when the food is finished another late comer came..n he is ming sang..den later we met jian yik at his workin place..den later yap yeong,kah yan,kah wai n kelvin went bak..den we went to kindori(the place where jian yik used to work n now kah yan is workin) to eat ice-cream...the ice-cream wuz so delicious..n tat wuz not all..the latest comer on tat day wuz not ming sang but our so called "Le Feh" king..koon hon hoong..(for those who went for the genting trip,u'll noe y is he has tat nickname)..he came when almost evrybody left..den we had some chat..den later around 6..my mum call me to go bak cuz scared later after tat no parkin near my hse area..so i went home..i miss them so much..hope the nxt gatherin will be more successful n oso can ajak more ppl out..n oso hope the nxt gatherin carmen men oso can join...carmen men we'll wait for u to come bak k..be strong k...dun 4get my words n danyal's words..dun let us disappointed on u ya..love ya..hugsss...n lastly i did not bring my camera on tat day..so cant put any photos here..for photos..pls go to poh chin's facebook n wait for her to upload those photos...hehe

made up my mind already!!!

2009-02-22T04:47:00.001-08:00

after one week of thinkin whether to give up or not..finally i made up my mind already..i will 4get him n neva ever ever think of him anymore..he will be nobody and nothing to me anymore..poh chin is rite..he's not worth it at all..if he wanna ask me y i break wit him last time juz to noe whether did he do anything wrong onot..n wit no intention to wan me bak...den f*ck off my life..dun come n bother my life anymore ok..and i oso wun bother ur life anymore..and wun drop a single tear for u anymore..

after all these incidents..i finally understand wat type of guy i like n need in my life..n i noe he is not my type..so i will not make the wrong decision and choose wrongly anymore..cuz i adi noe wat type of guy i like..

and now i will oso enjoy my single life..i will start to luv my single life..and be happy wit it..SINGLE ROCKS!!!!!so friens..dun worry..i'll not be sad for him anymore..i'll 4get him!!

get license and car adi..

2009-02-15T03:49:00.000-08:00

yeah!!!finally get my license and my car adi..tis mornin fetch iris's nephew go tuition den after tat my neighbour teach me abit parkin..he's so kind..n oso not bad tempered..i so scared he'll scold me cuz my parkin veri noob..den later after tat 5 something..my aunt said she wan to go makan..n go sri kota buy some stuff..so we went to the desa fishin sport there..cuz there dun hav car so quite easy to park..although dun hav car there but my side parkin still sux..n den after tat we went to sri kota to buy some stuff..den i fetch her all around tmn desa..den when i go bak..lucky still got place for me to park my car..n lucky i still noe how to park the car..haha..i wuz so happy cuz i wuz scared tat i cant do it..

ytd wuz valentine's day..it wuz nth special to me..i send greetings to poh chin,jia en,shu ying,lie chin,poh ying and carmen..and some of them replied me bak enjoy ur day..but i din hav any special occasion on tat day..den around evenin like tat i received a msg..there wuz a lot of number..den i read the msg..n guess wat..the msg is frm our carmen men who is in new zealand..hehe..i din expect a msg frm her..i wuz so happy to receive her msg..carmen men..love u so much..hope we'll be friens forever..n i oso hope tat me n all my stella friends will still keep in touch often..hope we'll be friends forever..

confused

2009-02-09T01:50:00.000-08:00

yesterday at 5 something...i received a call..i wuz busy so i did not pick up the call..den when i wuz free i look at the phone..guess who called me..it wuz him..i think u will noe who he is..he msg me n asked me y i broke up wit him last time..n asked me to tell the truth..we broke up adi one year..how come now oni u asked me tis question..is there a need or a must to ask this question..even if u noe the answer wat will u do..so i told him the reason and he replied me bak tat was it his fault..i said no..bcuz frm the start evrything wuz my fault..i noe he did not do anything wrong..i wuz in the wrong..sometimes i couldn't even forgive myself..i wuz the one who did not appreciate this relationship..i wuz the one who did not appreciate him n oni noe how to blame him..he keep on sayin it wuz his fault..keep blaming himself..n oso apologised to me..i oso keep on apologised to him n said tat i actually dun suit to be his gf..haiz..actually i rili wanna noe y he wannna ask tis question..this oso pass so long adi..y he wanna ask..how come evrytime when i tell myself to giv up to 4get him..he'll come bak to me n ask me question or tok to me about last time..not 1st time adi..y??is it even the god wan me to rmb wat i did to him last time..is it i cannot even 4get him..haiz...he oni ask me y we break up n apologise but he did not say anything further..wat does this means???haiz!!!help me!!!!

1st week of February!!

2009-02-07T04:27:00.000-08:00

so fast february adi..tat day tuesday i bai tian gong wit my aunty..actually wanted to invite my friends to come de..but after tat my aunt say she veri tired of cookin adi..cuz tat time grandma come to my hse.she cook non stop..so after she left..she want to hav a rest..so at last she cook veri simple..after she finished cookin n evrything is almost ready..she received a call frm her relative...her relative told her tat her husband's brother passed away adi..so it wuz quite sad..so nxt year cannot bai tian gong adi..sob sob..

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yesterday my secondary skul which is stella maris..celebrated chinese new year..as usual lion dance will be the 1st performance..accordin to iris..my skul's principal change adi..change to a man call mr peter..face quite lan si wan..haha..lucky i'm no more at the skul adi..ok bak to the celebration..iris told me tat a hitz.fm dj came..and he wuz frm stella maris..so he did some performance..n also a famous drummer in malaysia came too..so regret neva go bak to skul to watch the performance..i think tis year performance will be the best..iris told the show was veri fun and nice..better den the times when i wuz in skul..nxt year i'll try to go bak..hehe..

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nxt week i will take my drivin exam..so scared..scared fail lar...guys..wish me luck k..hope i can pass..i dun wanna take exam the 2nd time ler..haha...

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January-the month of sadness

2009-01-31T05:07:00.000-08:00

so fast 2009 adi..its a new year new life..evrything new..have to face many many new things..i'm no more in a secondary skul but in a college..but the college sucks..haiz..i chose the wrong college adi la..i'm tempted to go sunway but i noe if i go..my mum's burden will be heavier..den few weeks after college..i found another good college..mayb ana will oso go there..its orange international college(previously know as mc orange)..i'll go there on july..hope i wun make the wrong decision again..but sometimes i'm oso quite happy in stamford la..cuz i know some friens..there's one malay gal..she's veri veri nice..her name is dalilia..i think..n some china ppl la.

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january 22-my best friend carmen go to new zealand study adi..quite disappointed..so fast got ppl further studies adi..some more she is one of our happy fruit..no matter wat happen she'll alwiz put up a smile in a face..so i hope in future she'll oso continue to be a happy fruit..i noe tis gal since form 1..tat time we met in the monitor meeting..she wuz the 1st to tok to me in tat meeting..i still remember her hair is short..den we became closer when we were in form 2 cuz same class..evrytime i got problem she'll oso advice me..she helped me a lot..although i'm quite close to her..but i neva went out wit her b4..until last year..i keep hangin out wit her..went out shoppin wit her in queenspark,go genting play n countdown n lotz more..but i noe it's not enuff..n oso i noe last year wuz a veri tough year for her..she faced a lot of problems..friendship problem..but now evrything is over n oso bak to normal..finally no more fight..

CARMEN!!hope when u r in new zealand u'll stay happy la k..we'll miss u n wait for u to come bak..no matter wat happen smile k..n i'll listen to u not to giv myself too much stress k..luv ya!!muax!!!

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CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!! tis year chinese new year quite different for me..cuz i din spend my chinese new year wit my mum..n oso neva have reunion dinner wit her..cuz she can't make it to come bak..so i spent my new year wit my aunty..n oso grandma..but sometimes i feel my family veri weird..ppl's chinese new year..ppl will go bak to kampung wit all their relatives..they'll chit chat until the nxt morning..tok non stop..n some will oso gamble..but mine..it'll be stayin at home..n no relative come to ur hse..my aunty n uncle oso neva come my aunt hse bai nien..haiz..wat a family..n oso i oni learn to gamble tis year..not wit my cousins but wit my friens..i feel tis family veri weird..not like other ppl family..even my uncles n aunties oso not close wit my grandma..so how do u expect others to be close...end of tis weird family..

nxt come to friens..which is quite a happy thing..tis year is my 1st year go bai nien wit them..got yiau wei,lie chin,jia en,kah wai,yap yeong,kah yan,yee cher,xheng fei,shu ying n hon hoong..kah wai came to my hse fetch me to jia en hse..den her papa call us go up..so we went up to jia en's hse sit 4 awhile..den later we went to lie chin's hse..we gamble until veri long..yap yeong won so much..n they also make fun of him..they said kah yan is yap eong's simpanan tetap..haha..so swt..n they started tokin bout add maths formula..i think they rili too long neva study liao..haha..den after tat lie chin's mother call us to go down makan..we eat a lot..n oso tat xheng fei so smart..come oni durin dinner time..so juz reach den can makan..den as usual..when there is yap yeong,yiau wei n xheng fei there'll be many cold jokes..they keep jokin..den after dinner..we went to shu ying's hse..she bcome so dark adi..shu ying!!u better bring sun block when u go there k..den those guys n our queen of gambling,lie chin continue to gamble..they played in between..n yap yeong again won a lot..den its time to go bak..yee cher fetch me n jia en go bak..but it's not the end yet..after tat they went to hon hoong's hse to continue..i think they gamble n oso da kei...tis is quite a meaningful day for me..1st time go bai nien!!hehe..but tis chinese new year will be more meaningful if we have more ppl..like carmen..if she is there..i sure laugh until stomach ache..cuz she can oso create a lot of jokes..haha..

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its adi almost a year plus we broke up..i dun understand y until now oso i couldn't 4get him..i oso did something veri stupid tat day..i ask him out..hopin to see him..but at the end..he said he wasnt free n gave me some stupid reason..n i noe it is a lie..n finally i woke up..i told myself tat its adi over..i should not regret n cry over my decisions tat i have made..the past is the past..no matter wat i do..it's still the past..it'll neva come bak anymore..i noe if he care for me oso..it's juz as a frien..n i oso noe tat i'm not tat important in his heart anymore..it'll not be as important like last time..so frm today onwards..i'll start to 4get him..4get the past..4get our sweet memories..4get our promises..4get him..n start over a new life..i hope i can do it!!!

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